Own a Boat

Own a house

Be the best dad I can be

To be able to retire

To be happy with whatever i am doing

Finding a job or summer internship it does not seem to be working out for me right now but I hope I get something because it is kinda bringing me down. I guess that is just life

To make my parents proud of me and I feel like i am not able to do that. i feel like everything that i do and everything that i have been through doesn’t seem to matter. i want to give up trying to do that because I feel like i will never be able to.

Today I just got the info that I didn’t get the rec center job on campus. That would have been a cool job but whatever. Right now i don’t have any plans for the summer and i am single again so i guess i could hook up with girls but i never really did that anyways. Times are hard for me right now but I will live come on I had a brain tumor right. I have a backpacking trip in a couple of weeks I could really use that but I don’t have money for it but whatever I will make it. So i am going to pay rent today witch sucks $450 later but i have to have a place to live. I kinda have a feeling sarah is mad and frustrated with me but she will not tell me because she dose not want to hurt me anymore. This week is just a really boring week for me and the break up is not helping i just have to much time to think. I was really excited to be spending my b-day with someone special but that is not going to happen anymore. I guess on the up side umm i dont no right now but yeah. i could really use a friend to hang out with and do something with i am kinda lonely and bored, i am not going to lie.

Because I have been bored I will be done with class Tomorrow. I was talking with a friend but i guess i said to much. so no i am talking to my self i need a dog so i dont look as crazy. Anyways i have another job interview this friday i am excited but i am kinda down because non of my other interviews have worked out for me. If i dont get this job i think i might be heading home to work and having another lo0nly summer but bob will be there so it might not be so bad. This is me babbling on about realy nothing it just gives me something to do. If you read this feel free to put up a comet or something

Ok well Saturday night I was getting kinda bored so I decided to go out in the woods to just get my mind off everything. Ok so we have been driving out in the woods up and down mountains rocky and nice roads. so it has maybe been about 1 hour and we are starting on the way back and my truck is acting funny. So i get out of my truck my tire is flat flat. So I went to change my tire and i could not get my spare down. Well I got it down and it was not flat that is good. Well anyways it is a bitch to change your tire in the dark with no light.

More Final i am stoked but that means my summer is going to begin and i have no idea what i am going to do witch sucks but i will find something. I really hope I am with some good friends that wont get mad at me.

A.F.I

AC/DC

The Accident Experiment

Ace of Base

AeroSmith

Alien Ant Farm

Alkaline Trio

All-American Rejects

Alter Bridge

Angels & Airwaves

Animals

Atreyu

Authority` Zero

Black Label Society

Blink-182

Bloodhound Gang

Bowling For Soup

Boys Like Girls

Brand New

Breaking Benjamin

Chumbawamba

Coheed and Cambria

Crazy Town

Creed

Dark New Day

Dashboard Confessional

Days of the New

Dazed And Confused

Death Cab For Cutie

Disturbed

Drowning Pool

The Eagles

Eiffel 65

Eminem

Evanescence

Eve 6

Fall Out Boy

Finger Eleven

Flaw

Flogging Molly

Flyleaf

Foo Fighters

Fort Minor

Fuel

Get Up Kids

Godsmack

Goldfinger

Good Charlotte

Gratful Dead

Gravity Kills

Green Day

Jet

Jimmy Buffett

Jimmy Eat World

Johnny Cash

Kansas

The Kerosene Kids

There is more to come just dont want to right that much right now

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• Water ski
• Wake board
• Mountain bike
• Hang out with friends
• Sleep
• Eat
• Go backpacking
• Walking around the house topless
• Watch movies
• Get Back massages
• Camping
• Not Being Alone
• Play Video Games
• Act goofy
• Skiing
• Snowboarding
• Sledding
• Tubing
• Taking Naps in the sun
• Off Roading
• Boating
• Disk Golf

I have been working to get a summer internship all year and I have not been able to get one. I thought that I was going to get a summer internship today from vasco inc. Well they called me today saying that they where hiring someone else and it is really bringing me down. I am starting to feel like I will never be able to get a job and i am wondering why I am going to school. My brother and his girl friend have been bringing me down because everything that I have been trying to do so far this year they always shot me down. I have been doing my best to keep a high self a steam and to say that everything is going good. I just want to be done with everything nothing is going my way. I have been working my ass off to try and get something to work and nothing dose. If you have any advice please let me in because I am down and poor and I just dont like they way things are going.

Ok so it seems like my brother thinks he is better than me and dose not believe anything that i have to say. Maybe it is because he has a degree in engineering and engineers don’t seem to like people that are going into construction management. He seems to put down everything that I learn and it is getting really old. I am not trying to say that I am better than he is but i just wish he would support some things that I do. Even though i no the things he says can and most likely wrong but i cant seem to get a summer internship and him saying that shit you start to believe thing that you here. Anyways i am getting tired of his shit and it seems like him and his girl friend just both put me down and not support me at all and i am getting sick of it. My brother keeps on complaining that he cant get a home loan because you have to have 20% down now so he says and it is getting old when you can get a loan with 3% down you just have to get it insurance on the loan. No matter what i say he will not believe me but he will believe just about anything as long as it is not from me. I have been working my ass off all year to get a summer internship and i have not got one yet. I am really starting to get down because it seems like no one believes in me. I guess disk golf and hanging with rob we are still planing on hanging out for a week this summer witch is sweet because he always cheers me up. He only has one more semester at NAU witch sucks but whatever. I am stating to think why I am going to school but whatever i finish what i start. I wish i could think that my brother would support me in things that i do and learn but he just makes me feel like a dumb ass and like he is so much better than me. I just need to have some fun and not worry about money and to be with people that don’t bring me down. i guess this is my rant. and it kinda seems like the place that i am living is my bros and his girl friend. so i have been kinda staying in my keeping my own business I would like to have a dog or something to cheer me up but I guess we can only have two dogs in the apartment and there my brothers and his girlfriend and i am paying for them to. When you have a dog that is yours and you know is yours he looks up to you. With my my bros tough max to howl and he keeps on doing it and it is kinda old but whatever its not my dog so yea. Its not that I dont like my bro or anything i even look up to what my bro has completed but he dose not seem to care about anything that i am doing or anything that i have been through in my life. I just feel like have nothing to look forward to no reason to care about anyone or anything any more because i just keep on getting pushed down but whatever i don’t really care anymore.

Well lets start with the basics my name is Jeff and I am a student at NAU (Northern Arizona University). I am 20 years old I will be turning 21 this summer. I was born and raised in a small town called Pinetop. I love hanging with my friends and just chilling. I hate being alone but it can be very relaxing at the same time. I think I am addicted to music and I like making people happy. I own a black toyota pickup its sweet i just wish it was 4 wheel drive. I am really bad at spelling but i can get by. I don’t have that many friends but the friends that i do have there great. I like meeting new people. Going to the lake has to be one of my favored things to do. If you want to no more I am a open book so just leave me a little note.

When I am hungry I Go to the kitchen,

So today i was thinking about driving back to flagstaff because i have nothing to do during the day here in Showlow. I started thinking to myself i will have nothing to do in flag ether. This weekend i plan on putting a engine in a 2006 mustang that should be fun but i only wish it was mine. O so its a Wednesday and i went to walmart about 11:00am and yeah the walmart in showlow sucks. It is so busy at this walmart every line was open and there was at least 2 people waiting to get checked out. I have found out if something goes wrong it is going to go wrong in the worst way it can. My dad is mad at me over some stupid shit. My Best friend robert is still here for me witch is great but he is working so things kinda sucks till he gets out and he works all the time. i guess that life and mine is not busy right now. Right now i wish i had more people beleaving in me because i need the help. on the up side i will be turning 21 and i will be able to go down town at night and meet new people. I am starting to think i am a bad guy but all i do is just try to help people and be there friends and everyone is mad at me right now.

i have been making a ton of money just to go hiking